Well, we made it to November without snow--yeah! Apparently this is looking good, according to what happened last winter. I plan on purchasing my winter coat tomorrow, although I still can't decide which of two I like better. But, it's finally starting to feel really cold, and it's supposed to get to -9 on the weekend, so I better get ready for November.
Just got home from Mr. Mike's and drinks with my volleyball team. We're on a winning streak at the moment, so we went out afterwards. I ordered Spinach and Artichoke dip--an old Victoria favourite, but it was more like hot spinach dip with melted cheese and tomatoes(?) on top. Nachos? Not too sure, but it was still good. I had a yummy drink as well, which was as close to a Bellini as I think I'm going to find.
Lately I have been having recurring dreams about having a baby, and I wonder if it's me worrying about having kids, or thinking that I want to. Truthfully, I really don't want to have a baby right now, and there are so many other things I am looking forward to doing, but up here EVERYONE has kids, so it's hard to fit in and also hard to watch all the pregnant ladies and new cute babies without wanting one yourself. At the same time though, having come from Victoria where hardly anyone has kids, I still feel that pull to work on my career and TRAVEL and do so many other things I've been waiting to do. I guess I just feel so isolated up here, like there aren't that many options. Sigh. Who knows where we'll end up next, or what that place will be like.
I am already planting roots here though, and at the same time hesitating, when I think that in a few years I'll just have to say goodbye to a whole new group of friends and start over again. It's hard to be committed to a place, knowing that you won't be around to see the fruit of the seeds you planted.
I'm trying to remind myself that there is a purpose and a reason that we were sent here, I just don't know what it is yet. Patience...sigh.
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Small towns are funny. Powell River, although on the Lower Mainland, is totally isloated. We have the same wierd thing where people fill the time not spent travelling or experiencing things small towns don't have, by having babies. I too feel very frustrated. I want a baby. I am waiting to get married, but even then,I feel I have to wait for a continuing contact...Ahhh the pressures of doing everything your "suppossed to do".
Maybe your time in Dawson's Creek will simply expand your experiences to improve your writing. Look at your time as being one of your travels you hope to do. It's just a long one. The people you meet are expanding your knowledge of different kinds of people and ways of thinking. Like having babies to ease bordom.
On another thought, are you guys going to be able to come back to the island much?
Sabrina! You darling girl. Rest assured that you are not the only woman given to dreaming about/worrying about/fantasizing about babies. I don't want one right now either, but ... they're so damn cute.
Being women and getting older is so strange on so many levels -- don't you think so? Sooner or later, for most of us, the biological clock ticks in. The one topic of conversation that keeps getting rehashed with my flatmates (oooh -- catch that? FLATMATES -- I'm so British! HA!) is the whole "I will have a Masters degree but I want to have children, and get married, and preferably sooner rather than later!" debate. It's such a strange world, my dear. Rife with gender politics, which I totally didn't expect.
But oh well. Life goes on ... and the good thing about roots, my dear, is that you can UProot them but still keep a thriving plant, just so long as you do it carefully enough. You'll have friends all over the country by the time you're done. Think of the visiting possibilities!
Love you. Talk soon, I promise.
xo
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